aussie-wahine asked: just read ur personal post, good on you girl! its great that you can realise where your at and that your so determined now to be positive! i wish you the very best :)
sinners-sanction asked: I hope you're doing better now.
I need a fresh start. Ever since I attempted suicide by overdosing I feel different. I feel like I was given a second chance. Its weird I’m not sad all the time anymore, I still am alot of the time but in between I am reasonably happy. But I feel that I need to make a new tumblr, to start fresh. To try and be a little more positive.
I’ve probably set myself up for heartbreak from you again but it’s a risk I’m willing to take. I want to be with you.
I have a feeling that I’m not going to be getting any sleep tonight, well not much anyway.
That’s all that I’ve ever wanted, someone to want me. And at the start I wanted you but then someone ruined that for me. Now it’s like I don’t want you to want me anymore. It could be that you’re too clingy but I think it’s because you’re not him. I’m so certain you will treat me well, unlike he did but still I crazily want him, not you. And...
My hair is oily, I have hairy legs, my fresh open wounds sting, I have mascara streaks down my face and the worst headache. I’m going to go have a shower, wash my hair and my face, shave my legs, while trying to wash today down the drain. I guess I wish I could wash my scars off my legs too. I know I can’t but I’m hoping doing this will make me the smallest bit better.
Today I tore my skin open and ate a whole block of chocolate. Guess what kind of day I had..
Sitting, wishing, waiting.
I’m sitting by the window, looking out with tears rolling down my cheeks. Just hoping any second now you will pull up in the driveway and come inside.
I don’t want to be alone tonight.
You're not a failure when you fall down. You're a...
honestytoall: reachingthin: Love this. Wow. I needed to see this.
He who fights, can lose. He who doesn’t fight, has already lost.– Bertolt Brecht (via quote-book)
I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and...– Cat’s Eye, Margaret Atwood (via katelizabeth)